Thanks

This year, I am in a happier place than last year emotionally. I am not going to even get into how sad and awful I felt last year at this point.
I try to focus on the positives and the list is almost endless.
1. Daniel.... well he is my rock, my reasoning, the one who can take a situation and flip it to be positive when all I see is negative, my support, and the one who pushes me to be better.
2. Alex....even though she is far away now, she is and will always be my very very best friend. She knows me better than almost anyone. She has walked where I have walked and listened to everything that comes out of my mouth. She is the best investigator on the internet of all things medical. She asks me the questions I forget or don't think to ask which further explains different situations. I have fun vacationing at her new digs and have tons of fun traveling with her and Rosalie. She is my non blood family. My family of choice/ not family from birth/marriage.
3. Family. Blood/birth family. Also so supportive in all I do. Always there to listen to my ramblings of nonsense and stories. I am blessed to have married into wonderful family and also have been born into wonderful family. Although our time together is much smaller than I would like, making the most of the time is what matters. I have had so much fun this past year taking a girls trip with Mom. She was so appreciative of the trip and has given so much without asking for anything.
4. Work. Ok... yes I do gripe about work sometimes but who doesn't. I am so thankful to have a job. I love helping those achieve their dreams of homeownership. Also this job provides the basic necessities of living such as a roof over my head, food on the table, and clothes on my body.
5. My health. Ok, yes, this has been a topic of discussion for how long now?? But in all seriousness, I do not have cancer, ms, a brain tumor, etc. I do take how healthy I am for granite sometimes due to the black cloud that always hangs over my head but I really am lucky to be able to get up and do almost whatever I want. I can walk, I have all 5 senses, have a healthy heart, etc. So many people have it way worse than me.

Happy Thanksgiving to all! Here is to eating tons of turkey and taking a nap!

Pigging out

So yesterday for some reason I went all out on carb intake. I mean ALL OUT. Breakfast was a granola bar right before blood work followed by homemade pumpkin protein bread with pb2 then I had pizza for lunch and pizza for dinner followed by popcorn. I mean.... if it wasnt for the meat on the pizza and the veggies on the pizza, I would have had nothing but bread all day long.
Anyways.... today... Im paying for it. Talk about carb comma and just feeling weighed down. Normal days are not filled with tons of simple carbs. So after crossfit, I decided to make some fantastic breakfast thing I thought of in my head. Well.... it consisted of spinach, eggs, onions, and bacon fat. Lets just say the spinach blew up in the microwave! That was fun to clean up. But I also did make two successful sweet potatoes in the microwave. (potatos are for later to eat) My breakfast idea ended up with less spinach than anticipated but turned out awesome. I think the real winner were the onions cooked in bacon fat.
O and as for the vampire visits, I am 5 for 5 in not passing out! Also no passing out with the shots either. Maybe I really could make it in the medical field....

package in the mail

Normally I love mail. I love getting notes, letters, boxes of little gifts, etc. I enjoy going to the mailbox everyday. Today however, not so much. I received a large box from fedex. Inside was a reminder of my struggle. All of my drugs, needles, alcohol wipes, disposal box, etc. I look like I just robbed a pharmacy. The whole things is flat out scary. I know it doesn't hurt to take the shot, its just the concept of doing it that is just strange and not normal. Who would have ever thought that I would willingly be getting shots, mixing drugs, etc.
In other news... I went out and got 2 turkeys today! They are .47 lb so I figured heck yeah! I also went to visit my parents yesterday. I was able to spend most of the day with my mom and then she had to go to work. In the evening I chatted with my dad. Evan was supposed to come in super early Friday but ended up not making it til about 12. I was already gone. He had to pull over because he was too tired to drive any further. I was really looking forward to meeting his new dog. I guess there is always Christmas.