From my previous post... sometime last year if you recall, I was diagnosed with PCOS. All along I really just didn't understand or get it and felt like that was not really the case. I had only a couple symptoms and did not "look" the part.
Fast forward to the beginning of August. I decided to go see a more holistic doc who was highly recommended to me. It took FOREVER to get an appt. I was trying to get an appointment back in June. Anyways.. I got there, did the run of the mill question answer thing with the nurse then the question answer thing with the doc. He started going on and on about how he would be happy to treat me etc etc... then I gave him my results from the past year and 1/2 of blood tests. From there, he retracted everything he said to me. He kept say premenopausal over an over again. I finally lost it and started crying. He then told me that he was not the best person to handle my situation and referred me to another doctor. (who I had happened to have an apt with back in December but ended up canning) So, I left the office, drove to Chickfila, ordered a milkshake, and was on the phone with Alex until I landed at the new doctor's office. I went in and asked for the first available apt. The apt was set for the following week. (I think they saw my face and knew something was up)
I got home and shortly after Daniel did too. He was very matter of fact about the situation and basically said not to cry over it because we dont have all the facts yet and there is nothing we can do to change what they think I have. Its just life. I understand his point of view and also understand it effects me way different than him because I'm the one who has this "situation". But the fact is that none of this made me feel good.
The following Tuesday I went in to the appt. Same drill as before. Lots of questions, weight, height, etc. The doc saw me and was looking over my notes which were about an inch thick. He told me the same thing as the other doc. Plus he said he did not believe I had PCOS but another condition that is similar. Blood tests would confirm this. We chatted about different options on what to do and then he sent me to get blood drawn. The nurse was not super nice at all. I dont think she believed me about my whole I dont like blood stuff. Anyways... almost fainted (of course!). Then the doc sat with me again to go over a couple other things and then I talked with another nurse until I felt ok.
Fast forward to the following Monday. I called to follow up on results. They did confirm that I dont have PCOS. (so I do have this other condition) The also confirmed this whole premenopausal situation. (yeah... NOT!)
Anyways... Daniel and I have had many MANY chats over what to do, how to proceed, when is enough enough, etc. These drugs that they want me to take are no joke. 1. They are super hardcore, 2. They are the most expensive drugs I have ever EVER taken in my life. Its all a gamble. A gamble with my life, with future, with what if things don't turn out the way we hope, emotions, stress, etc. One minute I want to start like yesterday and the next, Im terrified. Daniel feels the same way which doesn't make any of this easier.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Saturday, August 18, 2012
The longest and shortest week ever...
So this past week I had an appointment. More on that at a later date. I was due some results that I thought I was going to get at the latest Friday. Well.... no such luck. I am trying not to stress over it because 1. There is nothing I can do about it and 2. I can not alter these tests to make them say something different. Its either black or white.
The later part of the week Daniel and I went to the beach for some r&r. Work did consume my time for a few hours at a time but for the most part, it was relaxing and enjoyable. Just waking up, having coffee, and then beach time followed by good food and good conversation. We had pizza one night and went out to a place called The Ice House another night. The trip went by way to fast and I was sad to leave the waves and how much they calm my body.
Daniel ended up catching a lot of fish, 2 crabs, and some sand flea things. (I think they are sand cicadas, not fleas)
The later part of the week Daniel and I went to the beach for some r&r. Work did consume my time for a few hours at a time but for the most part, it was relaxing and enjoyable. Just waking up, having coffee, and then beach time followed by good food and good conversation. We had pizza one night and went out to a place called The Ice House another night. The trip went by way to fast and I was sad to leave the waves and how much they calm my body.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Lazy days with sun and fun
Back in February my company decided to surprise us with a contest of sorts. Make x amount of sales and you get a trip to the Bahamas with a guest of your choice (provided that they were an adult).
In May I found out I was going to be going!! Our trip was at the end of July/beginning of August.
Mom and I had a wonderful time but here is the recap....
I drove to Charlotte on Sunday night and got up extra early to be out of the house by 6. We made it out by 620 "mom time". We drove to Charleston to get on the boat and stopped a few times on the way for food/bathroom breaks/stretches/etc. We were able to get on the boat early and had lunch, then explored, and then got our swim suits on and laid out until dinner.
Dinner was set for 8:15 each night. The first night, there was a cocktail party for the group and then dinner. I was seated with one of my coworkers and her sister, along with some other people who are lenders and their wives. By night two, we ended up switching up the tables a bit.
Dinner the first night was not good. (the food wasn't) I ordered a chicken dish but the chicken was dry and there was pasta all in it. On the menu is had no mention of pasta. So I just ate the chicken. We were all so tired from the day that we called it a night as soon as we could get out of dinner.
Day two was a full day at sea. I made the most of it. Woke up, went to the gym, got breakfast, laid out, got more food, laid out, called it a day from the sun, ate dinner, went to bed. Dinner was better the second night. It was formal night and I was SO excited to wear the dress I had gotten. It was hot pink and form fitting, just above the knee. Loved wearing it!! I had prime rib along with Mom. There was dancing at dinner and the waiters knew all of our names. I was impressed! We tried to make a late show that night but ended up going to an early show instead. It was full of singing and dancing.
Day 3. Woke up, went to the gym, then I walked outside on the deck to see us going into port. It was so pretty. All the different colors from the buildings and the greenery was awesome. We all had a big day ahead of us since work paid for a day at Atlantis. We had to be at breakfast early and then meet our group to then get a taxi to Atlantis. It only took an hour to finally get tickets into the place but man was it worth it! The greenery, the views, the hospitality, the beaches, ahhhhh. Send me back!
Mom and I decided to go to the beach and some of my coworkers followed. We had beach chairs and the whitest sand and bluest water I had seen since St Maartin. After a couple hours at the beach, we were starving and went to the pool in search of food. Mom and I settled on splitting a burger and water and laying by the pool for a couple of hours. After getting unsandy from the beach, we walked around Atlantis before getting a taxi to the port. When we got back to Nassau, we walked around the straw market and splurged on ice cream. We made it back to the boat in time and watched as people were running because they were late.
Dinner was very good this night and there was a lighter crowd. Again at dinner, there was dancing. I ordered lamb and Mom did too. We called it an early night this night too.
Day four was fantastic. I could go on and on about this day. Mom and I booked an excursion to go biking 12.5 miles. When telling people this, they thought we were crazy. We got up early, had breakfast, and then met our group right outside the boat for a fun filled day. They took us by bus to the outdoor excursion place to get our bike and find our bike tour guy. His name was Leroy and we were the "biker family". Before leaving the start line, we got fitted for our bikes, ordered our lunch and got sunscreen on. Leroy gave us all water to take with us and we were off. He stopped us a few times along our route to talk about the culture, land, etc. We saw the dolphin area, tahino beach, and a beautiful garden area. We ended the bike tour at lunch time, got our food and much wanted/needed water. After lunch we went shopping. I got a home made coconut cookie type thing and Mom got a pendent for her necklace.
They had a van come take us from lunch over to the beach. We went to Tahnio beach. Ahhh it was magnificent! Before even leaving to go on the cruise I mapped out where I would like to go in the event that we were out doing things on our own. This beach was the top of my list and it did not disappoint. We had chairs, umbrellas, music, soft sand, and clear water. To top it off, Mom got us some local beer. We drank the beer and at the coconut thing I had bought earlier. It was delish!
We had to meet our van by a certain time so time was short at the beach but so worth it. We were dropped off at a local shopping place and let out to shop and then were transported back to the boat.
Dinner was very good again and I got up and danced at dinner. The waiter insisted.
Day 5 was not so awesome to start off with. We got up and the sky was iffy. So we got breakfast and monitored everything. Lets just say it wasn't beach weather. The weather was so bad that we saw tornados on the water. Thankfully it cleared up by 1pm so then it was pool time. We had another mostly full day laying on the beach reading and sleeping. It was perfect and I did not want it to end. Dinner on the last night was good with Mahi Mahi and my one and only desert on the ship of coffee ice cream cake. YUM! After dinner a bunch of us went to a show called the marriage show. Boy was it funny!! Side splitting funny. It was a great way to cap off the night and the trip.
By Saturday am, we were up early, packed, had breakfast and left to bring out luggage off the ship. The trip was fantastic and it was nice to have an excuse to not answer emails or phone calls.
In May I found out I was going to be going!! Our trip was at the end of July/beginning of August.
Mom and I had a wonderful time but here is the recap....
I drove to Charlotte on Sunday night and got up extra early to be out of the house by 6. We made it out by 620 "mom time". We drove to Charleston to get on the boat and stopped a few times on the way for food/bathroom breaks/stretches/etc. We were able to get on the boat early and had lunch, then explored, and then got our swim suits on and laid out until dinner.
Dinner was set for 8:15 each night. The first night, there was a cocktail party for the group and then dinner. I was seated with one of my coworkers and her sister, along with some other people who are lenders and their wives. By night two, we ended up switching up the tables a bit.
Dinner the first night was not good. (the food wasn't) I ordered a chicken dish but the chicken was dry and there was pasta all in it. On the menu is had no mention of pasta. So I just ate the chicken. We were all so tired from the day that we called it a night as soon as we could get out of dinner.
Day two was a full day at sea. I made the most of it. Woke up, went to the gym, got breakfast, laid out, got more food, laid out, called it a day from the sun, ate dinner, went to bed. Dinner was better the second night. It was formal night and I was SO excited to wear the dress I had gotten. It was hot pink and form fitting, just above the knee. Loved wearing it!! I had prime rib along with Mom. There was dancing at dinner and the waiters knew all of our names. I was impressed! We tried to make a late show that night but ended up going to an early show instead. It was full of singing and dancing.
Day 3. Woke up, went to the gym, then I walked outside on the deck to see us going into port. It was so pretty. All the different colors from the buildings and the greenery was awesome. We all had a big day ahead of us since work paid for a day at Atlantis. We had to be at breakfast early and then meet our group to then get a taxi to Atlantis. It only took an hour to finally get tickets into the place but man was it worth it! The greenery, the views, the hospitality, the beaches, ahhhhh. Send me back!
Mom and I decided to go to the beach and some of my coworkers followed. We had beach chairs and the whitest sand and bluest water I had seen since St Maartin. After a couple hours at the beach, we were starving and went to the pool in search of food. Mom and I settled on splitting a burger and water and laying by the pool for a couple of hours. After getting unsandy from the beach, we walked around Atlantis before getting a taxi to the port. When we got back to Nassau, we walked around the straw market and splurged on ice cream. We made it back to the boat in time and watched as people were running because they were late.
Dinner was very good this night and there was a lighter crowd. Again at dinner, there was dancing. I ordered lamb and Mom did too. We called it an early night this night too.
Day four was fantastic. I could go on and on about this day. Mom and I booked an excursion to go biking 12.5 miles. When telling people this, they thought we were crazy. We got up early, had breakfast, and then met our group right outside the boat for a fun filled day. They took us by bus to the outdoor excursion place to get our bike and find our bike tour guy. His name was Leroy and we were the "biker family". Before leaving the start line, we got fitted for our bikes, ordered our lunch and got sunscreen on. Leroy gave us all water to take with us and we were off. He stopped us a few times along our route to talk about the culture, land, etc. We saw the dolphin area, tahino beach, and a beautiful garden area. We ended the bike tour at lunch time, got our food and much wanted/needed water. After lunch we went shopping. I got a home made coconut cookie type thing and Mom got a pendent for her necklace.
They had a van come take us from lunch over to the beach. We went to Tahnio beach. Ahhh it was magnificent! Before even leaving to go on the cruise I mapped out where I would like to go in the event that we were out doing things on our own. This beach was the top of my list and it did not disappoint. We had chairs, umbrellas, music, soft sand, and clear water. To top it off, Mom got us some local beer. We drank the beer and at the coconut thing I had bought earlier. It was delish!
We had to meet our van by a certain time so time was short at the beach but so worth it. We were dropped off at a local shopping place and let out to shop and then were transported back to the boat.
Dinner was very good again and I got up and danced at dinner. The waiter insisted.
Day 5 was not so awesome to start off with. We got up and the sky was iffy. So we got breakfast and monitored everything. Lets just say it wasn't beach weather. The weather was so bad that we saw tornados on the water. Thankfully it cleared up by 1pm so then it was pool time. We had another mostly full day laying on the beach reading and sleeping. It was perfect and I did not want it to end. Dinner on the last night was good with Mahi Mahi and my one and only desert on the ship of coffee ice cream cake. YUM! After dinner a bunch of us went to a show called the marriage show. Boy was it funny!! Side splitting funny. It was a great way to cap off the night and the trip.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Sometimes information sucks
More to come later on this topic... If I so wish to share. But lets just say I got information today that sucked. Big time! I should know more within a few weeks. Fingers crossed.
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